To the mods: Please delete my post if this does not fit with rule 0; I made this post because I want control over my own life by finding ways to support myself when I fall down (metaphorically), but I wasn't sure if that was directly related to increasing sexual options (though that is a long-term goal after I get over my disgust (disappointment?) at female behavior).

I want to improve my SMV, but I have been struggling with crippling depression and anxiety. Part of that is from growing up with a single-narcissistic mother in a low-income background, and I crave a community.

I want to improve my own life, but I'm scared to interact with others for fear of being rejected and not knowing how to act. Even on reddit, I'm scared of giving away too much information because I'm afraid that people will dox me and somehow harm me.

But, I'm writing this because I want to get out of my depression and become a better person. I've been thinking about joining the Catholic faith for the religious community, but I'm not sure that would be conducive to actually becoming happier and becoming more independent.

I have been part of theredpill community for at least 2 years now on different accounts/lurkers, but still have been struggling to swallow and implement theredpill. How can I build a support network to help me through my low points when I run out of willpower and don't keep focusing on self-improvement?