17M, senior in High School. I’ve known about the red pill for awhile. It’s really helped helped me focus on my goals. I’ve been lifting for 9 months and gone from 6 ‘4 155 lbs to 180. I’ve found my passion for computer science. I’m definitely headed in the right direction.

Yet, I’m still currently talking to 0 women. I could count the amount of dates I’ve been on in the last six months on one hand. It’s honestly pathetic. I’ve been told I’m pretty attractive and believe it as I get approached a decent amount. But, I always end up fucking shit up and don’t bother going after women,

My issues isn’t that I can’t talk to girls. Rather, it’s just that i feel like i subconsciously always put them above me. For whatever reason typically pretty attractive and popular girls approach me, and I always put them on a pedestal. I’m always afraid to escalate due to the fact that I’m inexperienced and know I suck at this shit. I’m afraid to embarrass myself. I’ve kissed a few girls, but nothing behind that. I feel so lost and far behind others my age.

How should I even start? I’m tired of being like this and want to change.