Ok so I met her in class. We both were seniors I felt attracted to her right away. So I added her on Instagram and she followed me back a week later. Later she posted on her story to add her on snap and I did and she started of saying heyy. And it started from there. I talked to her for 8 months EVERYDAY 24/7 from December to August. Only break was when one of us went to shower. During those months I always helped her out. She complained a lot and stressed a lot. She had a lot of anxiety so there were literally days I stayed awake until three writing paragraphs and paragraphs to make her feel and sleep better. I cared for her so much. She would flirt with me so much too. She nicknamed me cutie and always sent me hearts. Whenever I went on vacations she would write paragraphs telling me to be careful and stuff.

I thought she was into me so before college started I asked her out. She said she doesn’t feel the same way. I told her then we should stop talking since it would be hard for me. She said give me 30 minutes. She came back and said she loved me and said she was scared her parents wouldn’t approve. I said from a scale of 1-10 how much she said 10. I told her oh wow why didn’t you tell me? She said she didn’t have the GUTS to and her parents. So I made her swear to god and whenever we swore to god it was 100% the truth. So I was so happy that night.

So the next day I asked her again are you 100% sure we can make this work because I don’t want you to back out when I get even more attached. She said I’m sorry I’m not sure about my parents and she doesn’t wanna give me false hope. So I said we should stop talking since it would hurt me. (I was hoping she would come back and be positive since she said she loved me thst much). I waited whole day she didn’t. So I texted her a paragraph of a proper goodbye and she did same. (I was so upset because this whole time she led me on then Why would she text me this much and flirt when she wasn’t sure). So I asked her did you even care and she said of course I did and we talked for the next couple of hours and I was like this is really the end? And she said yeah I’m sorry I can’t make it work. I’m like we can try and everything she said no. We said our goodbye and then next day I texted her saying sorry and I really care for you and it’s like I’m barely holding on to you and stuff like that. She said idek yoy anymoee I’m like what how??! And she KEPT on saying can we not do this right now I told her please don’t leave and she was like I’m sorry I can’t do this. She told me she doesn’t like me in that sense, but I couldn’t believe it after everything. I told her can you atlesst unblock me she said no because it would be hard for me and you to move on seeing each other’s profiles. I was upset that after everything I did for and how much time I spent helping her feel better she couldn’t even do this much for me. She didn’t unblock me. So that day it was August 7 and I kept coming back 5 MORE TIMES!! Until August 10th. (I know I was acting desperate but because she played with my feelings and I was so shocked). Next I waited four days until August 14 and said it wasn’t love and I felt attatched to her so if she wants to be friends.

She said no because She feels guilty and doesn’t feel comfortable talking to me since I forced her so much. I told her I had my reasons and if she wants to be friends again I’ll tell her everything. She said no and doesn’t wanna talk to me again. I said ok and next day I texted her pictures of how I felt since I couldn’t put it into words she said please don’t talk to me again. I said ok. And that was the end. Now the thing is that she was new to this country and when we we were talking she was literally the most kind and nice person to everyone including me. I feel like she didn’t know how to act. Also her friends really made all the decisions regarding me for her and she didn’t know what to do. She was REALLY innocent. I feel guilty for constantly coming back and being seen like a creep and also that everything I admired in a future partner she had. Including the innocence and kindness. I feel like I can’t hate her and I also can’t find rare traits she had in others (more than the kindness and innocence). Idk why I can’t move on. Any suggestions?