Since I've started reading trp I've become bitter and angry. I got my last lay 5 days ago and tonight I went out and it was not good. Date with a tinder girl, she looked waaaaay worse than her pictures (at most a 5/10) and I didn't even want to fuck her. She acted all holier than thou and like she was higher SMV than I was (maybe my vibe was that bad?). Left and went out solo, but was low energy, approached one girl and got rejected, went to a pub but it was depressing. The whole confidence thing from the lay is gone, I have nothing but anger and resentment at the moment (4am and I can't sleep). When I was a beta, I was content having a shitty life and playing video games. I do not want to get back to that life. However I also wasn't angry. Now any failure to get a pussy drives me borderline insane ans aggressive. The only stimulating thing for me is the thrill of gaming a new chick. Everything else bores me. It's horrendous. I literally live for pussy which is the complete opposite of the red pill way. No idea if I have a fucking mental issue or something. Should I go monk mode? Should I stop fap? Fap more? Mgtow ? I want the anger and the bitterness to stop, it's unattractive and toxic.