This is a serious question. I have really bad OCD. Since I was kicked out of my college for following incel ideology once I have now gotten back with restraints. However, I cannot help but going on a computer without restraints and downloading porn to satisfy my primal urges. I’ve noticed that it makes me depressed and suicidal I cannot fuck a girl at that level and the post orgasm makes me feel unmotivated and tired the next day which causes my job and grades to suffer. Do you guys have any advice/mindset transformation tips in regards to this?