I know this is incredibly beta, but I can’t get over my feelings for this girl. She means everything to me and became the primary motivator for me improving myself and my life. I realize that my motivation should be for creating my goal and vision and that getting over oneitis like this happens with abundance mentality. However, I just can’t seem to get over her and am genuinely lost as to what I need to do to get remove her from my vision of a fulfilled life. I can’t seem to accept the reality that she sees me as a friend and cling on to the hope that she’ll come over (even though she has a boyfriend, and probably tons of orbiters). The worst part is that she makes me feel happy and even leads me on in some ways (which could just be my wild hamstering of wanting the best outcome). Whenever I meet her, I end up constantly acting like a person who has interest in her and probably a beta orbiter as well. Point is, what exactly is the first thing I should do to move on and how should I treat her and my relationship with her in the future? I will add the caveat that it is impossible for me to just disappear from her life given that we are classmates and she helps me a lot with my studies.