I’ve read some guy’s comment here’s that to get better friends, you need to be a better friend.

I’m 27, having a decent job, not lame, having some cool hobbies, and pretty friendly. I have some good friends but they live very far away, and those who are near pretty much toxic for me.

Oh man I’ve tried. I’m always there if my “friends” need me, no question asked. I’ll always be considerate towards people if they need my help with anything. Pretty much a dumb nice guy. I guess that’s why people often give me no respect. And I’m a bit outspoken, so I usually say things that they don’t like. There you go, being too nice, too available, and too frank, you get a combo of someone no one wants to be friends with.

I was pretty disappointed by how nice I treated people around me but received bullshits in return. There’s the guy I cooked lunch and dinner for a whole year because I thought it was nothing and my house was close to his office, and I worked from home. We shared things and had fun. I can say we were close. Turned out that guy talked shit behind my back and ruined many of my relationships. There’s another guy who lives near my house and he’d always ask me for help or favours. But when I asked him (which i rarely do), he’d ignore me. When we hang out he’d give me no respect, belittle me, and talk to me like he’s my father.

One time he told me to run him some errands, I said fuck off, he actually told me “hey, you know you need me more than I need you, so do it”. I was so fucking mad at people and myself that day. There are other people too, but you get the picture. If I do something better than them or something they couldnt do, I can see the envy in their smiles. Sometimes I feel like i’m in a bucket of crabs.

I really don’t know what is wrong with me or just the people around me suck. What’s bad about being there for your friends and outspoken? Arent those something a good friend should be? Then I thought about my good friends who live their own lives in foreign countries and gradually forget about me. I start to realize, man, i’m gonna die alone.

I used to be surrounded by people. I was very friendly and outgoing when I was younger. People loved me, for a short period of time until I found some shitty shit they did and cut them off out of my life. Little by little I have no friends left and I’m feeling a bit depressed.

How to be alone without feeling shitty about yourself? What do you do?