I am talking about the emotions you can't seem to control. In my experience, they usually pass with time. But I want to be more in control of my emotions.

I have been in holiday for one whole month in Madrid, and it's been a great experience.(1 month student exchange program.) The night life, architecture, nature is way beyond what I can experience in my sort of religious, developing country. I met a blonde girl (it was always my dream to fuck a blonde girl because they are rare in my country) and plated her.

But today, I said bye to all my new friends from all over the world and turning back to my country again. But I feel like shit turning back to my normal life, it feels like there is a hollow space in my chest. Add this the feeling of leaving your beautiful plate whom you started to feel something towards.

I feel powerless, and starting to lose my frame. This has never happened to me, as she is my first plate and it is my first time abroad. So I wanted to ask more experienced guys,how do I take control again? How can I get over these feelings?