Man I always worry at night , I feel very impatient

In life I think I'm almost getting a job, I'm still a student, I'm every week improving lifts but I'm not their yet, because I once cut weight too early and it took me so long to lose weight which I'm still not over it until I got my lifts up,

Also socializing like I'm good , I can make girls laugh very very easy but I just don't get their numbers but it's mostly, I meet them at job interview, school , gym , and I can't go to another gym , so I don't do it because of "don't shit where you eat" and I just feel like I need em lifts and to be somewhat lean 🤔

Now I know I just have to be patient and get em lifts up, but man my body needs like 4 hours of sleep so I'm awake mostly and shit, I can't go out from my parents , and yeah I'm 18, reading books man it's so painful and videogames makes me feel like a loser

What other habits are their besides lifting 🤔, I'm just lost can't sleep , and if I do sleep I wake up too early, I feel like it's a curse and a blessing to have that much energy