So it has been 3 or 4 months seens I broke up with my ex and she calls me saying her grandmother died, she left me for a famous guy that apparently dropped her after fucking her and now is dating some beta that she met through a common friend, she said she was sorry for what she did, I actually understand the situation in a way like I was a very draining person at that moment and tired of the relationship for more than a year, I guess we both were and she found her way out, I don't approve of it, but fuck it it happened, the thing is that she has tried to stay in touch, has said she is sorry and we had been friends for a long time before dating, my problem is that I can't feel anything but anger or pity when I talk to her, which was actually a problem in the relationship like I wouldn't give her attention unless she was sad or something bad had happened to her or she had a bad day, I would just disconnect, I have always been good at that, I just want to stop being angry, really like sometimes I play the scenario of seeing her again in my head and I just start punching walls, I have dated other women, have tricked some really hot girls into having sex my ex was like a 6, this girl was like a 7 or 8 but I can't seem to connect enough to have a relationship with anyone at the moment, I really don't want to, I m 22 but affection is needed I guess, I just don't know how to proceed with her, don't wanna end up in prison just so she can fill up part of her narrative or something, maybe I need some inside info, what the fuck is she looking from me, I have heard she has talked trash about me and I don't really know what to say, guess I just needed to drain right now, but the Anger comes back, being thinking of telling her how much of a bitch she was and never talk to her again, but don't know.