I don't know how else to say it. I have tried to look for resources on not liking my home country, but it seems like there are not many resources for people like me.

I tried to fit in growing up, but whatever I did, I felt out of place and could not attract a decent girl. So I tried to do my own thing, learn grow, and be a more interesting person. Did it help? Nope. So I kept to myself and did my own thing. But many of the things I want to do are illegal, so many of them I did not do, or I had legal issues over. Further my friend was falsely accused of rape, my dad died (8 years ago, but still hurts), and further the economy is still anemic. On top of that you have a culture of cultural Marxists and worry warts. Then you have more laws by the year, despite all the effort you put into politics (which I have worked on), which make you even more depressed. Then normies have the nerve to say you are the one with the problem. It seems like mediocrity is the new national pastime of the US. Has anyone else started to hate the US?