Last spring I broke up with my girl who had lived with me for two years, and we had two small children.. matter of fact I told her to get her shit and get the fuck out.

She has begun acting disrespectful, staying at her moms for hours everyday then returning home immediately going to sleep, and picking fights to abruptly leave.

She used the excuse that my dad lived there after he had lost his job and had nowhere to stay as the reason behind this.

One day she told me we could no longer have sex as she was afraid to get pregnant, but would give me blowjobs this was the day I kicked her out. I later found out she had secretly set up a birth control appointment, when I had been fucking her she would grown or lay there as if it was the worst thing in the world or I was raping her.

Fast forward w month has past since I kicked her out we didn't speak once, I went to her house because I felt bad about the kids, she acted very snotty, bratty, condescending, claimed if I thought she cheated on me I needed to leave immediately, then admitted she had got on nexplannon to fix some pain she had in her stomach I immediately recoiled when she said this.

During the next few weeks she would randomly contact me, never touch me, never inkate sex, kiss, and was very distant and u friendly, but would always message me late at night or early morning never really during the day and if she did message and I replied it would be an hour standard e she replied.

We ended up having sex, which her body literally shook, but it didn't seem like it changed her she still acted distant, etc etc, she later admitted she had been going to a psychiatrist.

During this whole time I felt like something's off she is cheating on me, but I have no proof, just gut instincts.

Long story short she denied talking to anyone, meeting anyone, she gets pregnant. Now that she's pregnant, she tried to gaslight things, change the storied, admits she met up with this fat kid for ice cream, but all their messages are deleted, I saw a Facebook story about her and these guys she was friends with in colle talking about meeting up last summer, but it's deleted she claims it was never even on Facebook, but all messages to this kid are deleted, even though when I brought up doing a lie detector she claimed these are the only two guys she talked to last summer, but nothing sexual.

I literally feel like dying with this girl, we have two kids, I live in this house with her now, but everything feels off. I have 20k in cash next to me, we got in this huge fight this morning because I can't get over this stuff, she tells me I'm crazy, tried to tell me how loving she was towards me last summer.

I just wanna go bros, I wanna run but I don't know where. Help me guys, I feel like everyday my. Life is getting worse.