Got a very fucked up type of mononucleosis. Lost all of my gains (went from 80kg to 70kg) Cant drink or eat what I want.

After few months I returned to “normal” lifestyle (no lifting and alcohol for half a year, special diet) and went to the club w my friends and some girls.

This girl i like was giving me serious sings that she wants sth, and even my friend where pushing me. But I felt so fucked up bc of everything that happened to me, and Icompletely igonred her and couldnt even talk to her.

Guys i need some advice on how to get over this fucked up state of mind where i lost everything that gave me confidence and frame. I feel like shit.