I've read materials, lost a ton of weight, and have really cleaned myself up from the slobby-neckbeardy-fuck that I was. I used to weigh almost 270, then I dropped to 190. I dropped off working out and gained about 20lbs back. I'm back to dieting and working out every day.

I can't seem to get over not being able to escalate. I don't know why I have trouble, I know I'm not the best man I can be yet. I know I need to have patience. But God dammit it's irritating as fuck being a 19 (almost 20) year old virgin.

Currently im reading The book of Pook, I've read The Game, I've been watching RSD on youtube, I've watched pickup videos for the last year.

I think the real problem is I'm a bitch and I don't know how to fix it. I can't seem to find the balls to man up and escalate or even show interest. I see a few IOIs from random girls I interact with.

I don't know what i'm asking for, advice or something?