19M I come from a pretty fucked up family. Was abused, neglected all that, am super insecure. After reading NMMNG I'm now aware of the dynamics of my issues and how they're rooted in my childhood, which is kind of still happening lol. I'm seeing the importance of having a healthy relationship with my parents. I know I need to get away from my parents and become independent, I'm working on it. Time and many years of space will heal more than anything, but for the time being I still have a relationship with my parents and want to kind of rid myself of some of my demons.

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Of course my parents were also abused as children, and so were their parents etc. My mom is BPD and has her issues, she accidentally instilled machiavellian thinking in me lol, she's a hopeless case. My father is fucked up but there may be some hope. My dad is perpetually insecure, he can't sustain a relationship without making it toxic and complicated. He's constantly chasing the validation of me and my younger sister. He used to beat me mercilessly as child, don't remember really having a relationship with him. I know he feels guilty about it, but he still does the same shit, just more emotional abuse no physical. My dad is filled with feminine traits, super in touch with his emotions and feels the need to act on it. I have no intentions of red-pilling him as I know better than to do that. But I feel as though I can take control of this relationship and fix it, to some degree.

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Of course therapy is the best option here but I find the rp ideology tends to have the answers to many things in life. So does anyone have a similar experiences. At the very least I wanna reach some peace of mind of my own.