Me and my gf have been together almost a year, we were each others first everything. I was so happy and excited at the start. In August and September sex started getting less good, caused by the fact that I was struggling to stay awesome and badass because well... I just liked her so much. She turned me to mush inside every time I saw her. This lead to a few failed shit tests blah blah blah whatever you've heard all that before.

Naturally, I stepped outside of myself, realised the problem, and fixed it. Easy peasy. Nope. The sex is back to normal, but now there is an absolute minefield of shit tests to pass. I can't keep up it's just ridiculous. Completely and utterly exhausting. Back when I was just starting to see her back when we were both 17, I would have been able to step up I believe, because I really, really liked her and would have worked so much harder than I did to have her. I loved her I really did. It just hurts me so badly when I think of how much I cared about her before and how absolutely nothing I feel now. I lie in bed next to her sweaty, huffing and puffing and my head feels empty. I just want to love her again. I would do anything just to have that again. Go ahead, call me names like beta and loser. I don't give a fuck. It's an amazing feeling and I want it back.

Of course I haven't told her. I was going to break up with her on Halloween, but I just couldn't do it. I said her name (I rarely say her name) and was about to follow up but tears came into my eyes (I had not cried since I was 15) and she saw and I just couldn't do it. She is so sweet to me when she thinks I'm upset (I've broken frame 2 times before then, but on neither occasion was I upset enough to cry).

TL;DR: I can't feel emotions with my gf who I previously felt very strong feelings towards. This began after an large increase in shit tests and general unattractive behaviour, which is very uncharacteristic of her (I am however aware that AWALT, need support on this front to fight rationalisation). I just feel dead inside all the time and I would like this situation to kindly fuck right off. Has anybody experienced this before, did it go away after a period of time or a number of different girls or is it forever?