I swallowed the pill 2 weeks ago. I just realized how many chances I blew for plates and free sex. I legit could have had sex with more than 30 women over the period of 4-5 years. I was too beta or lazy to make a move.

Realizing this today made me angry. I put down so many girls because I was picky or only looking for a relationship. I could have been spinnin' plates, even if I wasn't that attracted to them. I've been working out since I was 16 , I'm 21 now. So the 'just lift' stuff doesn't work for me.

Lately I've been putting myself out there. Downloaded Tinder, been working out, I have a big squad of friends (around 20-30 friends). My social life is great, yet I feel down. I've been hitting up all my past plates to come over but most of them ignore my messages or have a boyfriend now. I don't know why I feel so empty. I had a period where I had sex with prostitutes but they don't fill the emptiness.

Is it because my oneitis is playing games or because I want to enjoy my youth and bang girls? What's wrong? is this a phase of the red pill? I feel between not caring and depressed. Talking to girls is not as fun as it once was. I realized they play so many games and started losing interest. And I can't be arsed to go on dates, I just want sex.