So I'm a bit disappointed

I just fucked this cute girl that I knew wanted some. It was fun and challengin, but mid fuck I just got bored.

Literally didnt wana make out or continue I felt like I came and that got me back to my senses and made me overthink

1) if she gets attached it will be an issue and I'll have to deal with it and i never like rejecting people 2) she kept saying how amazing i am 3) for me things were mechanical, I was focused on performing like it was a show or like I had something to prove 4) she kept trying to look into my eyes and all that BS

Thing is I had another plate where things were like this. I reached a point where I literally had to drink to fuck her. I let her go and now she constantly sends nudes and I make excuses all the time so we dont meet.

I thought that the reason I dont like this other plate is cause I dont find her attractive. However after today with this new girl, I'm lost. I found her suuper attractive and still same result. Detactchment and worry and no longer butterflies