I’m 27 and I never had a gf, never fucked and never masturbated. I tried multiple times but I either feel shitty about it no matter how much I try to get myself turned on. And I rather masturbate with a girl. Is this abnormal?

I just got my own place this month so I don’t know if I’m forcing things ahead of time or should I just go a different route?

EDIT: I forgot to mention I lived in a very religious household so anything sexual was considered sacred for married couples. Should have mentioned that beforehand.