(1) Should I even bother learning red pill game or should I MGTOW?

Objectively speaking, I'm around lower middle value in the market. At least according to women's requirements (simply being realistic). Part-time college student, part-time wage worker, very smart with my money, fortunately have my own car, live with my very bro father for financial reasons. I'm attractive enough that I get noticed by women; they try to make eye contact with me and show signs of attraction. I do have a gym membership and make it there three times a week. All of this to portray my set-up; where I am.

Started to take in MGTOW stuff first, then found the red pill, and I get it. And I'm taking it in. Slowly but surely, going through the early phases of falling back and being really depressed about how things really are. I'm very resentful at the moment, misogyny. Not sure how to navigate the climate.

And also having an extreme case of oneitis or something similar, where I feel if I just have sex with some hot girls I'll never find my "soulmate".

(2) My second question: When a relationship "just happens" for people, is it because they're just already high value enough that they can stumble untryingly into a relationship, and is that blue pill? And for more average guys like me, have to work hard and learn game to get women?

So I am definitely looking for advice and input. My best guess to all of this, which is confusing and intimidating to me, is to take a few years out in the wasteland and build value, possibly even wait until I'm in a salaried career position, and until then just making approaches here and there to keep the rust off. Mainly because I just don't have the time between my one college class, the gym and my job. So I don't have the time or money for pursuing.

Red pill is so complicated to me and there's so much BS I almost want to just MGTOW. It's complicated, but possible.