I've made a topic on here before.

Previous TLDR: 19 yo was on drugs and was about to take viagra after a party, but didn't take it. She found it. Didn't want any contact. I didn't chat for a week, then send her a message. She still didn't want any contact.

Then this fucking happened. 3 Weeks after we fucked OP started getting a burning sensation when going to the toilet. Told her about it, we both did a test. Both came out negative. We both felt like shit.

So then there was a party, the day before the party is asked her "You wanna have a chat when I see you?" She said: "No, sorry". Went to the party I didn't see her just had a great time even thought she was in my head for a moment.

After the party the next day she sends me a message asking for the test results. I told her what I was, and that I felt pretty bad (cat is really sick). Then she asked if I wanted to talk. So I did, had a casual convo (she was sendings pics, vids of herself from the party, laughing at my jokes with all caps). In the beginning she said: "Did you come? I didn't see you". And a bit later she said I want to tell you something. "I did see you, I saw you and my whole mood switched, even my friend told me. I had tears in my eyes when I saw you" and that's when she decided to take lots of "supps". Then she went to the whole other part of the room so she wouldn't see me. The convo ended because she went to sleep.

Next day I asked her how she felt. Had a little convo nothing to special (bringing up jokes from back in the day". And then just pretty much told her "Hey, if you would like to meet up again shoot me a message". She said "Idk it's a bit fucked don't you think" (She said "idk" a lot in the past but actually she doesn't want to give me a clear answer). I told her I would make up for it and that fact that you almost cried when seeing me and stared at a wall for 30min after she saw me means something. Then I told her I was going to this certain party, and she didn't know about it. Sent her the link and she was like "my friends prob won't go, can I join you guys" I said yeah sure. After that she didn't answer anymore.

Should I keep pursuing? Only texting when I've got something useful to say? Or should I just leave it here and "wait" for her to text me first? Problem is, I don't follow her on IG anymore and vice versa. Only on messenger and facebook.

The previous advice I got on TRP was to just, try and rebuild interest, try to set up a date. But when should I stop texting/pursuing. I can't fucking get this chick out my head, It's fucked. I keep raising my SMV, doing gym/muay thai. Working on my dream (building websites) (working on learning programming languages outside of school), going to school. But every fucking time I think about her and get all sad and shit. My SMV is pretty high for a 19 year old. All from the above, driver license, 6'4", muscular, lean asf. I know I am a bitch and hopefully I'll laugh at this topic in a few years.