I was raised by a father that didn't bring any masculinity into myself.

I was suppressing my masculinity and sexuality throughout almost all of my life as I was raised to be ashamed of it.

I want myself out.

What are some ways to actively bring them out? I'm trying to be more bold, assertive, sexual. Embracing the reality of TRP. Training at the gym and practicing boxing. My mates aren't that masculine themselves so I want to find some new dudes who are more RP by nature.

My cheating ex helped me to bring some of them out but now the hoe is gone.