I have a good paying job, amazing group of friends, am currently in the best shape of my life ever, can pull girls, have goals, yet I feel so unsatisfied. Mon-Friday is just work, gym, eating, sleeping and going to the shooting range. Every Friday me and my friends eat out together. Every saturday we chill at bars. Sundays are for my family.

I don't really care about the whole dating scene anymore. Girls are usually a waste of time and even when I go out on a date or have a one night stand, I feel nothing.. just emptiness afterwards. I've never fallen in love, that's how numb I am... but yeah I'm still young.

I love my friends but lately I've been bored to death by hitting the bars/clubs. One of my best friends is a DJ so we support him and go see his sets but I'm just tired of the whole drinking shit and shitty clubs/bars in general. I'd rather stay home and watch a movie, wake up early and hit the gym. But I'm young so I feel like I'm forced to socialize. No, I'm not depressed or an introvert.

I live in a small town where everyone knows each other, there is nothing to do here. The bigger cities are 30-40 minutes driving but it's the same shit but only more fancy bars/restaurants, etc... I'd move away to a nicer town but all my family, friends live here, and my job is literally 15 minutes away.

One of my main goals is joining the special forces, I am doing tests to join the army first and work my way up from there. But the first test is around 30 april.. so that's almost half a year to go. I sometimes feel like leaving everything behind and do missions in other countries for 9 months a year if that's even possible.

So is anyone else fed up with life? I feelt the happiest, driving around at 1 am, playing some music in my car while I watch the city lights. I even enjoy banging prostitutes over normal girls, it's so weird...