This is mainly to get help for my thought process , I kinda know how common this situation might sound, but even though I've found my path, I am surrounded by my beta past, even though am moving forward.

I've been friends with this girl for a few years now, and we had mutual respect for each other. She even cleaned my apartment one time. (she lived next door). I never made any moves, I know her ex and It felt awkward, and she didn't show any IOIs I think, but we would have fun together and she mentioned more than once that we have chemistry(as friends?) when we used to hang out either with friends or alone.

Today she moved out from her apartment as she will be leaving town for good in a month from now. When she was leaving she ringed my bell to say goodbye, but she was kinda cold. She just said bye, don't be a stranger, we should go for a coffee before I leave. no hugs no nothing and she left.

I know this sounds as another oneitis story but only thing I would like is sex before she leaves, then I might not see her again for a long time, but I don't know how to pursue it. I guess what bothers me is the what if. What if I made a move when I first met her, instead of making excuses that I know her ex or that it was shitting where I eat.

I found the red pill a while back and I've read alot, I even managed to stop my dry spell, and reading TRP I realized that I was starting to care about banging her, so I distanced myself, but now she left and she is going to be in town for another month living at her friends. How do I stop having regrets for my failures?

It's like the IDGAF attitude I had after TRP didn't change things, because I was probably Giving fucks since I realized I liked her, and changing that attitude did not achieve anything with her, it just solidified my position, if it wasn't already. I keep thinking that it's because I gave up on it.

Any suggestions about changing my thought process would be great. I am fine with other girls, and I've had some success, I just hate myself for being beta with a hot girl living next door. It's like the universe said: "In your face, you weak fuck, that's what you get" teasing me, reminding me of my failure.