I was in a relationship that had a heavy amount of gaslighting, I'm talking - like a militant level. The girl was european. I don't want to hear it from you assholes, I know I fucked up. After, she said a bunch of shit pretending to be me, i doubt myself, my lifes gonna end in suicide. I'm not smart enough to do what I want, I have anxiety, etc. This was repeated. Remember, the beginning of this was slammin'.

I'm talking to this doctor who basically said that its an aspect of "mind control". They break down your reality, and install new beliefs - it supposedly becomes like your new personality.

I am ready to move on I just need to know what to do to get back to where I was. I have this hobby I love doing I can't even focus/pay attention on now, it's like I'm dissociating and can't stay in the moment while doing it anymore.

Has anyone ever overcome this? I don't want to waste a bunch of money and time on a psychologist if I don't have to. I'll do whatever it takes, yes, I'll also never put up with something like this again.