alright real youngin here. I know im living the beta lifestyle but dont know how to stop. My girl got kicked out in May we met in January. The first months were great we even went to vacation New York on the 2nd month. Once she got kicked out she stayed at couple of friends houses until she got a room woth couple roommates. Guess she went into deep shit and now she is in depression with almost 12k in debt. She used to be fit now she is getting fat. Doesnt try anymore for me. And assumes I should pay fpr everything even though my job is part time and she is full time. she exploits the fact that im still growing as a man so in a sense she brings the ideology that a man should do everything for the girl, but we're not even married. Maybe its cuz i care of how i portray myself but i dont want to come off cheap so i do as she pleases. How can i fix this?also, before she started having to live on her own daddy was giving her money while i come from a blue collar family so i have always hd the bare minimum. Im mad at myself that im here buying her $300 gift xmas but my mom is cleaning houses making barely that in one week. i have always paid for everything i think i started earning for my clothes since 9th grade unlike her who up till she got kicked out was plugged in so she knows a life that i done and is only pretending to know it because she is broke. I've tried to leave her multiple times but I never seem to follow thru. I guess i can be honest to a bunch of strangers but she put on a waterwork show and then somehow i end up saying im going to change. Bear in mind before I met her all she was doing was having the time of her life going out with girlfriends and going to frat parties. She claims she only been with 4 guys. And my history is age 21 and i have had a 5yr relationship and another 1 yr and going on to 1yr with this one. And for some stupid reason i cant stop myself but i want to help with her debt bc i feel as if her depression is bringing me down even though ive had my eyes set on truck for 2yrs alredy. She already owes me 4k. And she is extremely clingy and wants my attention 24/7. And couple days ago she said "u make me feel safe and secure..." "But i never feel tingly i just like how u make me feel safe and secure" and one time we got realy drunk and "playfully" she said ohh im with you bc i feel like i owe u. One more thing, i guess its since she is losing her image or maybe myself is the issue but i have no sex drive towards her whatsoever. Then we fight about it. woooow typing this and actually spitting out makes me realize a) i have major issues b) im fucked up in the head c) why do i think she is any different. Ive read all the posts about party girls going for chads and when shit gets tough they need to simmer down. But i resent her bc ive never had that single life in a sense. How can i guess "regain frame" or how can i go about this. Lost kid in this world. My dad has not shown me anything so honestly the internet is raising me to be a man in a sense. Growing up whatever question i had, google. Now, TRP. Guys, im just tired of running around in circles with my life. Its sad bust im 20 and not much has changed since freshman yr of high school. I have made NO new friends since and pretty much lost any i did or dont hang out bc they too are up to same shit. I hang out with losers.... my "best guy friend" barely got a job n he is 21 and its sad that me and the guys we chill with talk about the same girls AL THE TIME. girls who forgot about us years ago girls who never even thought about us to begin with. Please trp gods help why is it that she plays off everything so good. She makes u think she aint like that