I had a recent breakup with an LTR of 1 year. Won’t bore you but it was a decent relationship with lots of sex and she was incredibly subservient to me and would do literally anything I said that I wanted both sexually and non sexually. Didn’t think I had as much feelings as I did when we broke up, now two months after break up she has called, I have called, both saying very cringe things I wish I have now never said. Worst of all I said words that I never should have ever said ‘well, I still love you so balls in your court.’ NEVER let them know the balls in their court, drunk me is clearly as beta as it gets. She’s in my close friend group at university and it’s inevitable I’ll see her. She calls me almost routinely once a week when she’s drunk and tells me she loves me or thinks about fucking me and doesn’t like me with other women and she hasn’t moved on but she hates me and loves me at the same time yada yada bs bs. After me being the last one to say something totally beta as fuck I’m ready to nip it in the ass because for some reason this breakup literally broke my heart and is the one that leads me to the red pill. Shall I just go full no contact and block/just move on and stop being a bitch? I feel like it’s an obvious answer yet here I am because I’m struggling to so bad.

TL;DR Ex I do have very strong feelings for tells me she loves me, I text her the week after telling her I love her and I want to get back together, and that the balls in her court. We are in the same friend group at uni. The fuck do I do.