17yo. Been lifting over a year. When I first found TRP I was under the impression that lifting would benefit me greatly in terms of confidence, but yet I still remain the pussy I am. People from school think I'm extremely extroverted, however, that is only because I am really comfortable with everyone there. I tend to be a 'clown' at school, the guy that always makes people laugh, sometimes I say dumb shit. I am basically on a platonic level with every girl in my class. I've had one girlfriend, my body count is 1, other than that, I have no other experience.

After discovering TRP, I have detracted from my clown personality at school and have become quieter for whatever reason, people tell me I'm not as funny as I used to be or loud as I used to be. I'm more reserved and keep to myself more.

As a kid and up until now, I've had extremely overprotective parents - they had conditioned me from an early age to believe that talking to girls is wrong, they would embarrass me and I had always been a shy kid that got bullied. I would also often get insulted by my family - I'd get called stupid, my good grades were never good enough and my bad or mediocre grades defined me. I could never reach my parents' standards, even now I am seen as a pussy by them. My dad always tells me I'm not man enough.

When it comes to meeting people I am not familiar with - girls and guys alike, I overthink. What if they don't like me? What if I say something dumb? What if they think I'm dumb? It has gotten to the point when whenever I am out in public, or meeting with people I'm not familiar with I can't eat without throwing up due to the anxiety. When I'm at a party I get the biggest palpitations. I overthink like crazy. My friends knew a group of 8s and left me alone with 3 of them, I didn't say a word to them. I just looked away and pretended as if they weren't there.

My self-esteem is low due to my physical insecurities such as having a big distracting nose (willing to PM pictures if needed.) My friends always bag me about it. I find myself always looking at myself and comparing myself to other guys on social media etc. I'm also insecure about being stupid, as that's what people see me as - my family and friends. How do I improve my personality? How can I fix my issues? How can I work on my inner game? I've been told that MMA could help me and strengthen my frame, whilst also developing confidence. Is this a good option?