I’m 23 year old. I make my own money, fair looks and very good body after few months of lifting.

I was virgin until getting into an ltr for 5 months. First implementation of TRP principles got me too far, I realized I underestimated my SMV and frame control started making all the difference. Yet it was my first experience and had a hard time understanding how some of the teachings preached here would be applied in a good way. Sometimes I failed and let her break my frame, which eventually lead her to dump me two months ago.

I suffered from oneitis for about a month. Cried a lot, wanted her to take me back like a bitch. Inside me I knew it would be the last time I’d ever do such a thing. I was in “love” and she let me down. Never again.

Now I’m about to plate a girl who’s easily 7HB. Yet I lack any emotion towards her and everything is sexual. Lack of attention is making her even more interested. It never was like this with my first and I was enjoying her company. It was my fault that I made her my mission but it gave me extraordinary happiness and fulfillment.

Now I feel happy yet empty. I know that I can never love a woman the way I did or else I’ll get hurt. How do you make an inner peace, is it worth keeping plates just for sex? I don’t find that much happiness in it an actually wanna run away after I orgasm.