I'll start off with the specifics, I have one eye... I love having one eye, I use it as a pickup line. To say the least its gotten me a few phone numbers.

Anyway, let me get started with my story...

When I was graduating from high school a couple years ago I had a girlfriend and she eventually pushed me the good old fashioned way to become alpha (always pissing me off/driving me nuts/turned me into a IDGAF mentality with assertiveness to boot).

Fast forward a year from then I went blind,legally blind, and had 3 surgeries last year to fix this problem to a certain extent (I still only see 20/50). When all that was happening I literally lost my frame on everything in my life.

Going blind is my worst nightmare, I contemplated killing myself simply because I refused to be one of those blind guys who relies on everyone. I had a friend who I could thankfully call, just vent to everyday to, and just keep myself from going insane.

The thing that really fucked me up mentally was my vision would get better and worse on a daily basis. It was just like "will I open my eye up tomorrow morning and never see again".

If this says anything I was seeing a doctor 2 hours drive away (4 hour round trip, and 2 hour wait to see the doctor) everyday monday through saturday for 4 months.

At this same time this was all going down my mom was being as smothering as can be.... She kept trying to do everything for me, clean my room, get a movie started on my computer, and it drove me nuts.

I just can't seem to shake this deep sense of I'm a broken human being...

I have a lot of shit going for me right now, not amazing but I'm pretty happy with it.

I have a few websites that kickback a few grand a month, I can see 20/50 now (it's stuck there), another big plus is I moved out of my parents house with a friend and his son (father and son, it's cheaper this way and no lease, $300 a month but its a dump).

I appreciate the advice. -iscriptz