Fuck. I think I've finally decided to face the truth of my situation. 2 years of isolation and the hurdles just keep increasing in size. I lift and finally get my life in order and get sick for a week and I literally lose all my progress. My gym progress, my studying progress, my general health progress, everything. I lifted for over a year and got chicken pox and lost all my fucking gains in 10 days! (10kg's) I'm depressed again after a long time because a month ago I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, but now all I see is the bottom again. It's doing my head in. I think it's best for myself to just "go my own way" .. Top 20% is too far out of my reach. It sucks that it took me this long to realize it. Anyway, my question is what your opinion on MGTOW is? What are ways I can find happiness in this path? I can't unswallow the pill either!