One year ago I was beta. This holiday season will mark one year from going beta supernova. Afterwards I started swallowing trp before evening knowing about it. I lost my best friend and a new good friend because of my BB actions. I still think about the things that went down and seem to have a much harder time letting go of the anger than I thought I would.

I have recently thought of going by and telling my old friend that I acknowledge my actions and their consequences. I am not wanting to try and be friends again, feels beta. Nor am I wanting to apologize, he is fairly alpha and I don't want to submit.

What are trp's opinion on this move. Anyone have experience like this.