I've been lurking around for a few months so I decided it's time to join TRP.

My background

I'm 32 years old and was raised by both my parents in a normal household. I had a sibling that passed away before I was born, I ended up being the only child.

I was always the shy and quiet kid all throughout school, very few friends and sure as hell never anything close to a girlfriend.

Shortly after graduating high school I jumped right into an opportunity with the help of an uncle and built my own business. To this day I still run my business and continue to improve it as best as I can. I skipped college and probably missed out on improving my social skills, but at the same time doubt it would've been any different than high school for me.

Still remained somewhat reserved all throughout those years and started getting pushed away by the few friends that I had as they started to settle down with girlfriends. I focused hard on my business, my hobbies, and travel with the close friends/family. Honestly I didn't give a shit about women since I was 10/10 times being ignored, looking back I took up the mgtow route and didn't even know it.

Well now that I've been reading TRP for 2 months or so I can honestly say that I have seen the light. I have a lot to learn and have been applying a few things to my daily life, here's a short list.

Started working out again, my problem is my big gut (to loose weight and feel healthier, not to please women)

Holding my frame with anyone who tries to test me or make me angry

Forcing myself to talk to people when I go out on weekends or even to the store

I decided I was no longer going to be a doormat for others

I'm still working on being able to approach woman with confidence, me being 5'4 doesn't make it the easiest thing in the world but I will work with what I got and harder than ever. The anger phase that others experience didn't have an impact on me, I know that women are biologically hard wired to find the best alpha that they can and that many of them don't even realize it. It would be naïve of me to get angry at them because they've ignored me all this time, being nice, yourself, and beta in general just does not work. I'm living proof of this.

Once I found out that I was mgtow I decided that I don't want to be a quitter, my plan is to be the best version of myself that I can and eventually find myself the girl that shares my beliefs to form a family while having some fun along the way with CC pre-walls.