Lately I've been realizing a lot when it comes to social dynamics. I'm seeing it all on my college campus. Alpha fucks, beta bucks. I'm seeing why guys/girls act a certain way, how people build social value, flirt, dress, etc.

I'm 20 years old, Junior nursing student. I have 2 bodies. I've learned a lot since I started my journey almost 5 years ago. Something I realized about myself;

I never played sports. I was never a loud person. I never was confrontational. I rarely disagree with people. I listen more than I speak. I am very concerned about my self image/ego.

I was always cute but I didn't know it I guess. This semester is different because I just became an RA in my residence hall and it's been a huge status boost so far. Freshman girls are all over me. I flirt with almost everyone.

I'm talking to a 18 year old HB7 dominican/russian chick, virgin, for the last 3 months. She's given me pretty good head but we haven't had sex yet. She might become my first girlfriend.

I'm just realizing that my whole life I've never been "alpha". I'm trying to improve myself in the following ways.

I'm monotone -> become more expressive I'm 5'7, 160 lbs, ~15% bf, (Skinnyfat) -> Lean bulk then cut I'm lacking experience -> flirt,date,fuck attractive girls I want to be a nurse then nurse practitioner -> study my ass off

Something I'm realizing lately is that I never needed anything on the internet to build myself into who I wanted to be. I am so glad that I found the red pill but to be honest it feels like the guys at my school who are "natural" already have it figured out.

They are alpha and they act the part. They have strong frame. They talk to different girls. They don't commit easily. They lift.

I'm trying to figure out why I've been so passive pretty much my whole life. I used to be a nervous wreck. Beta to the fullest. No friends in high school. No girls. No sports. No talents.

Now Im a college junior and I'm (pre-alpha) because I'm not afraid to approach and escalate girls but I still have some personality traits I need to develop.

The bottom line is this;

I still feel like I'm too nice. I want to continue to build my value as a young man, and gain the respect of others. I have such a long way to go. I guess I want to just learn how it feels to be natural.

I have a lot going on and I'm not sure if having a girlfriend is even really all that it was cracked up to be. Cause even though she's great and everything theres other girls I could be getting pussy from right now. And shes a virgin. This is going to take a little while.

So how can I improve my frame? I want to be as close to a "natural alpha" as possible for a recovering AFC. I'm open to trying new things, changing the ways I look at the world.

What kind of feedback can you guys provide for me based on the information I provided. Thoughts? Insight? I appreciate it!