I’m making this post as kind of a follow up to my last.

Basically, my problem is that I don’t like myself enough to bring a girl around in my life more than once. I have no problem sleeping with women, it’s just as soon as it happens I self sabotage. This carries over to other aspects of my life, but the main area I have noticed it in is women.

I don’t know what else to do at this point. In all honesty, I should be happy. I am a senior in college at a fantastic university, I lift 5 times a week, I locked down a top job after school, I’m in a top fraternity yet I have no self esteem. I have a lot of “friends”, but I keep everyone at arms length. I want to build these friendships and relationships, but I just can’t get to the point where I fully put myself out there.

I don’t know if I have some past trauma I need to get over, or if something is fucked up in my brain but something is a little off. If anyone has some guidance, please please help me, I’m sick of feeling this way.