Im 17 and I've basically struggled with depression on and off my whole life but i hit rock bottom earlier last year i had my first love she was my first everything and i fell head over heels for this whore she made me feel like i could do anything then outta nowhere she broke up with me for about a month i stayed fucked up it didn't matter what it was i just didn't wanna be sober because when i was couldn't handle it i started comtemplating suicide again and cut off everyone in my life then i found the red pill and started improving my life started working out losing weight i even got my ged i was feeling like i could get any girl i wanted and i did for a while until i met my gf now who've i've been with for about 7 months everything was going great i thought i finally had the life i wanted then about a month ago things slowly started getting worse it started by just losing my drive to do the simplest things, then i started thinking i wasn't good enough anymore and so on until now and its getting to the point to where its hard to even interact with people on a real level my life is falling apart all over again and i don't know what to do anymore

If anybody has any advice it would be greatly appreciated i just got out of that hole and i feel like im falling back in and i don't know how to stop it