I will keep this short and as condensed as possible. Feel free to ask any questions to clear anything up. Thanks in advanced.
This is long but there is a very brisk tl;dr at the end.
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Met her, let's call her Sara, online on OKC back when I just moved to new state and was lonely and depressed
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Became penpals and had a pseudo LDR
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I established myself as very beta
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Started to adopt TRP philosophies and disenganged with Sara but still remained friends
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Started spinning plates, working out, and overall doing extremely well
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Moved to new state again, same state as Sara, and determined to exceed and attain all my goals
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Transition was harder than expected, slight depression and loneliness returns
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Oppurtunity to meet Sara arises, I pay for her to come stay with me for two weeks (currently at the end of week one)
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Immediately realized my mistake but I didn't want to back out because overall goal is to be "Gentleman Alpha"
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See this situation as a test for myself, so I end up going through with it
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I discover she has a new boyfriend, days before she comes
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Sara arrives and I'm very resentful of the news but I try to stay focused on the end goal to improve and learn from this
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Everything goes well at first, I keep to my own routine and remain frame
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We get high and I tell her I want a massage, she happily obliges, and I see another oppurtunity
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I know I could have her if I wanted, so I gave her a massage as well
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I tease for a long time, she finally says, "I know what you're trying to do and it's working. I give you permission to just do it."
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Obviously, consent is necessary, but she was demanding and I didn't want to give her what she wants after that. I continue teasing and then go to sleep shortly afterwards
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We don't mention anything about it the next day but the sexual tension is high and I was happy. I had the control. I knew I was doing well.
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She asks for another massage and I said "No, but you can give me one", she gives half assed massage and I tell her "I know what you're trying to do and it's not working" and I disengage
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In order to counteract the situation of the beta-me paying for her entire stay with me, I neg her constantly, maybe too much
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Later that night we kiss for the first time, the tension was insane but she kept fighting for power, I've never faced such a challenge in this area (usually I end up with very submissive girls so it was easy to pretend to be alpha even though I was very much beta). I then finger her for a while, and she returns the favor (no finish for either of us). The whole time she lacked any passion besides trying to domineer the situation, so I became discouraged and disengaged yet again.
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Last few days the tension has been high, but she keeps pushing me away. She has been throwing a million and one shit tests and before I realized what they were, I failed a million of them.
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When we are out at the club or anywhere outside she is all over me like I'm her boyfriend, at home she keeps pushing away my advances
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Just this morning I fingered her again and gave her a first orgasm (with me) only to be pushed away when I went in for a simple kiss
I have lost my power and control, I feel like more of an AFC then ever before, and I'm lost. I'm sexually frusturated and my teasing has backfired on me. I see potential to recover this but I'm very unsure on how to proceed. My pride is damaged and I am quickly reverting back to being more beta then ever. She can see the change, I know she can. I have no feelings for her, but my repetitive failure with this challenge has my morale down. The fact that I don't have those feelings yet I'm getting stumped by this makes it even worse.
tl;dr: "friend" staying at my place, sharing a bed, for two weeks. Paid for her ticket, a lot of previous beta behavior prior to TRP commitment. Thought I was doing well but her mixed signals puts me in back in AFC mode. How do I recover and make the best out of this?
Edit: Thanks for all the help! I applied a combination of everything and the situation is fixed. Regular sex and all.
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