I've been here awhile. Not a linear progression, some forwards, some backwards, learned some, ignored some. Mostly thought I was moving well, but the last couple weeks/maybe a month have been difficult.

I've always had issues with anger and anger phase. It usually triggers other thoughts/emotions that are difficult to control; like resentment. Note that these aren't strictly relating to women; I've experienced issues in work situations and a few groups I belong to.

Pretty much everything I could use as an example would show me as a little bitch, from expecting a work partner to do their part (but didn't and shit hits the fan), to having a GF react unexpectedly (the specifics aren't the issue, it could be anything). I get it. I'd say to me, "move past it"--but there's the rub. I just get pissed off. And that colors most of my follow up behaviors.

I guess my question would be "how do you not be a little bitch?", without the only answer being "Don't be". I'm needing more specifics than generalities.

I over-analyze--I think quite a bit. It's taking time, but over three weeks (three fucking weeks, ridiculous), I've lessened my white-hot anger at shit. But at times, I could rip the doors off.

For example in the area of work, I've taken a hit to my reputation because of lack of support and other shit out of my control. I've fixed the issue, and we're back on track, but I can tell opinions from the VPs and Exec Directors aren't great. And I'm just fucking pissed that it got this way. I have to interact with this group, and I am very careful, but I'm still very pissed that it's gotten to this.

It's just hard for me to let go of this. I don't want revenge or anything, but I'm in a constant state of being angry.

The ask here is what techniques or meditations do you use. Has anyone else had a similar situation, and if so, how did you move past it? When it happens it's easy for me to easily get pissed off at other things, like a chain reaction.

Thanks in advance.