So I made the decision to swallow the pill about a week ago and I'm lost, miserably lost. I don't exactly have good judgement skills to estimate my SMV and I've been told it's like a 4. I'm not ok with that, so that's why I'm here. The part about understanding the realities of life is going to be hard on its own but learning to get good enough game for 8-9 might be equally as hard for me. I have t had many relationships, like around 10 and I'm 17. I know I have it inside me, I just don't know how to rip it out and make use of it.