Been smoking for 12 years. Ive got everything else under control but i just cant quit. I tried everything, gums, cold turkey, reading books, going to see cancer patients. Most time ever without cigaretes was 2 days and i wanted to beat someone with pipe. I feel like its part of my identity and i cant imagine my life without. Getting rid of drugs and alcohol was easy. Eating healthy and working out seems futile because il get fkn cancer soon and i still dont care. Whats wrong with me seriously i dont know what to do.