I know the whole thing theorically and use them but on and off i become really emotional and act like beta. I mean not normal beta superduperlover beta. I am starting to call her 9999999 times... say ''please meet with me today if i dont hug you now i feel really painful'' and it passes after 1 hours and i become a red pill again. At those times i am thinking like ''yeah an alpha doesn't act like this'' but my body feels overdose oxytocin and can't handle myself. Like Hulk of the Marvel there is a beta living inside me. How can i solve this? as we know from pyschology suppressing the feelings is making it worse. There must be another way than trying to suppress the beta.

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