Thank you to whoever is going to take the time to read this post and try to give me some advice. I really appreciate this communities goals and want to stand by them in my life from here on out.

Here is my saga. I have been in a 3 year relationship and apparently it has been crumbling due to my beta complexes of letting her get away with murder with everything out of love. I also was diagnosed with anxiety and depression and am now on medication for it again. The medication helps me to not care as much anymore, which I am happy about/delayed ejaculation. I was not realizing I let my alpha qualities diminish. Don't get me wrong, I love this girl so much, but I am quite tired of her taking advantage of me.

Recently I noticed he was taking an interest in one of her close alpha coworkers. I noticed that she was texting him often and playing it off as work. You already know where this goes. Long story short I was right. The odd part is that I would be unethical and look on her ipad at what her facebook searches were. She would look up myself, him, my exes. etc. Very odd. I was trying to see a pattern of whether she was interested, obviously yes.

Long story short the early flirty text messages turned into a work happy hour hookup. She ended up making out with him and jerking him off and cuddling in his bed...as far as I know. I was broken and let my beta qualities shine unfortunately. I cared about her and was so upset she lied to me. I let it get that bad. I must say now that she most likely showing alpha widow qualities. She knows I am the settle down type and the other guy is not, but I don't want to take this shit anymore. She said she wasn't attracted to be anymore and wanted to just be friends I guess, but I think its BS. I don't want to be her friend, but its hard to let go. I don't want to be here emotionally and not physically. Our sex life crumbled because I was lazy and thought the excuse of her saying she was tired from work was acceptable.

She has been letting her hamster wheel run with excuses and saying she needs to do some soul searching and that she wants to be by herself for a little. I can tell she is skirting around the issues because she knows this shit was dead wrong. I should have cut it off. I was living on my friend's floor mattress for two weeks since late January and now I made an agreement with her to live with family until around late March (or play by ear). The only reason I gave in like a beta is because I cannot afford to live in our apt by myself, I don't want to be there alone, and because she doesn't have family close to us.

So basically I want to take this relationship back obviously and be the alpha I used to be early on in our relationship. I am so sick of her skirting around the issues like an asshole because she fucked up. She kept saying she wouldn't want to deal with it at the moment, but I don't see there ever being a moment purposefully.

What should I do to reclaim my pride? The only communication I can have is basically text and thats logistical at this point. First night here she called me crying that she missed me and played it cool. I won that battle. Next day calls me at work to talk about coworker getting engaged. I am done being at her feet when she wants me to. I want her to chase me from now on. What can I do to make her be my beta woman? Is it possible to arrange a meeting despite promising the time alone? Help me TRP, your my only hope. Thank you to anyone that takes the time to read my story.