Hi everyone

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Pre story:

In 2014/2015 I was very active on TRP and had good success with women from 2014-2017 - after that I slowly stopped visiting TRP and fell back to Beta patterns - especially when i met my LTR. I'm in this LTR since 1 year now.

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following situation:

My relationship is going better than i've ever expected to be. Buuut.. I have a weird issue maybe someone can relate or give me advice on that.

Last week I texted all my former fuckbuddies/ONS and managed to invite one of them to my place yesterday. Due to lack of TRP "knowledge" (last time on trp 2 yrs ago) I was so needy and so obvious for her that I just wanted to fuck her - without success. Because she had no car/train home she had to stay in my bed - I obviously tried it the whole time but she pushed me away everytime.

After 1-2 hours of trying I just said to myself: well thats over anyway, im going to tell her that I have a girlfriend, that i want to fuck her right now, etc. she started to see me as a psychopath, and screamed why the fuck would I invite her if i have a girlfriend, why am i doing this to my girl. Tldr: cringey beta psycho shit just came out of me

Then i started to have paranoia and needed to remove the black hair of this girl from my appartment and to clean all my bed sheets because of the perfume. i was scared to lose my girlfriend.

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2 problems here:

  1. why can't i get laid anymore by another girl
  2. why am i even trying to get laid by another girl when i have the best gf

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i hope that i will get other comments than "get help". thank you