Okay, this is a strange story and I want to ask for your opinions about this; if what I did was right or wrong. I will try to provide as much detail as possible, because I'd like as much objectiveness as possible.

So, to start... I am 17 years old and a while ago somebody pointed out that my best friends are females. Only females. Now, that would not normally surprise any outsider, but it surprised me. I have one, two male friends and the more I thought about it, the more annoying it became. So I began thinking what my condition and my female f(r)iends. What I found out was appalling.

To make it clear; I am not an alpha, nor a beta. I am somewhere in between. Why I define myself as such is because I am not actively looking for a girl to bone. Hell, I can go even as far as to say that I dislike sex, but that's not the main point. I don't make any effort to be attractive, I certainly don't have personal charm. I am a little more intelligent than the average of my friends, but that pushes me outside of their circle, usually. And why this whole parenthesis was important is because I found out that four out of four of my female friends were attracted to me.

I said that it was appalling. Now, let me explain what that means. I do not, at least not consciously, rely my happiness on others. I am perfectly content alone, not looking for contact of any human beings, let alone females. However, the moment someone meets me, I instinctively put on a mask of friendliness. In my naivety, I ask my first question: Is it possible that naivety makes those girls attracted to me?

My immediate answer was no, but I changed my mind upon reading some opinions on TRP. Someone, I don't remember who, said that women enjoy having the upper hand on men. But later, I found out that only one of those girls liked me because I was, wait for it, INNOCENT!!! I rejected her.

The next one told me she liked me because I was smart. I told her that I am not looking for a relationship. The third one told me she liked me because of my looks. I am self-conscious about my looks. I am an average looking almost-fat guy, so even if I was up for game, I wouldn't rely SOLELY on my looks. I told her to stop being shallow and tell me what she actually wanted. She didn't answer and never spoke to me again. So far... The fourth one is the one I am insecure about. She doesn't fit into the stereotypes of the women TRP speaks about. She hates feminist culture and sometimes I swear she has misogynistic habits. Her dating history includes relationships that lasted and ended when HE was the asshole. I did my homework and it's true (and that's what worries me).

This type of girl does exactly what I do, but in an inverted manner. She doesn't take the red pill, although she could rape your soul if she wanted. She openly told me the same thing; that if I'd really put my mind to it, I could have any girl I want.

But I don't trust women. I don't want to entrust my happiness in the hands of a woman. I don't want to depend on one and I don't want her to depend on me. I don't want sex, love, romance and anything regarded as cute. I don't want to experiment. And finally, I ask you:

Is this sort of mentality right?