I discovered TRP about two months ago when searching the internet for answers. I'm sure a lot of people ended up here the same way. Since doing so I've learned a lot. This sub has taught me why my relationship failed, how SMV works, and turned me off from the idea of marriage (not that our relationship was far enough along anyway, but it's good to know).

First and foremost my most dominate blue pill trait has been Oneitis. I lift, look good, have had sex with many girls, so opening and closing has never been a problem. But every time I fuck an HB8+, I get Oneitis and I get it bad. Once I discovered this concept I realized that I've been pedestalizing my ex girlfriends all my life. By acknowledging this I've made it the focus point for self improvement. I've got my most recent ex blocked on all social media, and have ignored all of her attempts to circumvent that by commenting on posts and photos with me that my friends share. Ran into her at the same club two weeks ago and my friends were astounded how little it effected me (outwardly). I've gone cold turkey with complaining about her to my friends. All of these things I picked up from TRP, you could say I've made some good progress.

I've lost a ton of weight, plated up two girls since her, held frame in public and have been hard no contact for two months now, All very good things. The dilemma I'm having is that if I'm honest with myself, despite all this progress I still have Oneitis for her. She crosses my mind at least once every day, usually when waking up and some times during the afternoon. However last night I started thinking about her and could not bring myself to stop. It's been like a drug addict having withdrawals. I have no intention to get her back or to even fuck her again. I can thank TRP for that. All I want is to get this girl out of my head once and for all. Maybe I just needed to vent, but if there are any practical things I can do to clear my mind id love to hear it.