Hi everyone, (30yo) First, to make it clear , I had a relationship with a BPD last year, since the breakup (6month ago) I'm insomniac, paranoid and overthink everything. I'm currently dating someone that I like, i just don't know what to do, what to think, my brother says go for her, but I see how his bluepill behavior affects his own relationship, so it's difficult for me to listen.

So when I broke up with this crazy BPD, I dated different plates for 6 months and finally found someone different. She (28yo)was very enthusiast, talking about us, future, etc.. I knew how to behave to drive her crazy, it was a perfect chemistry. One day I dumped my 2 another plates, cos they bored me and I decided to be with her, she told me she did the same few weeks before. We started something really great, something that I missed for years.

And then, adversity, my parents were in trouble , almost homeless, the new quarantine in France, my insomnia got worse and I stopped working, I got really sick, she saw me in a really bad state, going to hospital, panic attack. I stopped seeing her for 3 weeks, I needed to heal, I needed to be in shape to live our relationship. When we met the other day, she told me she doesn't know what she wants. Now the situation is weird, no more investment, no more plans. She spend all her time with friends and we just see each other once a week.

What the fuck? I don't know what to think, is it only because I was sick? Is it only about weakness? I'm fucking lost and I don't know what to think.