Finally went to college and it’s beginning to hit me how slutty girls are. I’m not angry because I’m one of the better looking guys on campus and I know I’ll be getting pussy, but still.

I don’t know if any of you have read the catcher in the rye, but one of the main themes is the preservation of innocence. I’m having trouble letting go of that. It doesn’t make me angry as much as it demoralizes me for my future with another woman.

I want kids. I want a wife. I see how these girls act and I’m afraid to have a daughter one day - afraid to provide for a woman who could’ve acted like some of these girls.

Fuck. Help. I don’t know. It’s late, I’ve partied, seen a couple of girls I didn’t know were capable of certain things do certain things and now I’m confused.