Ok so I’m typing this at 4:30 am, after being out drinking, snorting coke, ket, smoking weed and to cap it off I took a xan like an hour ago. For context I’m 18, I should be starting my second Year of college in September but I dropped out and I’m now looking for a job. Fortunately, a friend of mine should be sorting me out a decent admin job in a law firm which is good pay for my age. I think entering monk mode might be a good idea, I’m un able to keep a good routine right now without knocking my body out of schedule and living the way I do now means that although I do socialise a lot on the weekends, I tend to do stupid things as a result of drugs and drink, like message a cute girl that saw on the club to come over for ‘Netflix and chill’ bare in mind that’s literally the first thing I’ve ever sent to her on snapchat. Also, I gave in and ended up jacking off to porn moments before typing this. Not everyone agrees with no fap but I’ve had success on it and I’m frustrated as I keep telling myself that I’ll get another streak going but my lifestyle is making it really hard. Everything’s a mess right now, even if I try and not go out one night I end up smoking weed, becoming a zombie and eating like shit. Constantly ticking coke and ket also means I owe a fuck load of money to people right now (not serious amounts but a couple of bags throughout the week adds up) I think a good couple of weeks might change my perspective a bit, improve my frame maybe. I’ll still do social things but tone it down massively because I don’t want the lure of easy dopamine (drugs, alcohol, junk food) to stop me being the man I want to be.

Anybody have experience with this? Do you think it would benefit me? I’m going to experiment and keep y’all updated.