I've been reading a lot about the redpill and I think I'm ready to swallow the pill.

First, a little information about myself - I'm 23 years old, virgin and obese I'm 1,81m and weigh 130kg. I know one of the aspects to improve SMV is to be fit. I've already joined the gym and lets hope I can get to 80kg. Ah I'm also mentally ill. I have psychosis.

Well enough about me.

I've been seeing this girl for about a year. I started get feelings for her and got "I like you as friend" answer. Okay, I thought lets be friends then. But I like her too much. I have a severe case of oneitis.

But I believe I should "ghost" her, though it would hurt me very much

I sincerely don't know what to do....