I am an atheist 19 yo at a good school in the US. I am 6'1'' 185 lbs.

Ive gotten to the point where I've pulled 9/10 times I go out (the one time I didnt was when I was too busy to get a real costume for halloween).

I usually pull 6s and 7s and plate them easily. It is rare that I even see an 8+ on a given night based on my standards (which my friends say are too high). I really don't see the point now adays. I feel like I have little to prove. Sex is ok but not better than the gym or a nice chess game or climbing a V6.

Tbh my actual fantasy is raising a nice family with a cute (not hot) Jewish girl who will be a good, kind, grateful, sumissive, smart, and nurturing mother. This is actually my kink. One of my friends is an orthodox Jew former D1 athlete. He is doing the whole waiting til marriage thing. Then he will be paired with an orthodox girl who has been trained from a young age to be a good wife.

After looking into it, the deal seems pretty great. The divorce rate is almost nothing. Gender roles are reinforced by the culture. Everything is set in stone, from the expectation that the woman maintain herself for her man to what she must do for her man. The man also has responsibilities to provide for his family and carry out certain traditions.

I'm seeing this and thinking it could be a path to a fulfilling relationship I desire with a loyal, nonwhorish partner. Sure, it might not be a unicorn, but it will be a well trained pony easily maintained by the culture. I honestly am starting to think that even though I am an atheist, why not go for it?